intj

if only they could stop treating every subject like a scientific case, they might actually succeed in fitting into society to some extent. as camus said, the world is absurd and doesn't align with rationality. what they're doing is like dissecting the laws of physics in a cartoon. yet, if you approach the world with the mindset of a child, embracing the absurdity and integrating it, you'll find joy. but every time you question the nonsense, you're pulled deeper into loneliness and depression.

an intj is often alone; even those who manage to blend in with society have a world inside their heads that includes only their own understanding, no one else. subjecting widely accepted societal principles and values to a rational filtering mechanism and mocking them isn't a common practice.

so, from the start, society positions them as "different," which inevitably leads to experiencing social interactions in ways that are unlike anyone else's. those who keep these thoughts to themselves feel the weight of social pressure, while those who boldly voice them are seen as cold or rebellious because they perceive themselves as being on a different plane from others.

if this opposition to the values that shape modern society isn't controlled, it can morph into an overwhelming ego, leading to the destructive depths of isolation. i'm not talking about the kind of loneliness where you can't grab a few beers with friends, that's easy, you can fit in for a while.

what i mean is not a lack of people around you, but the gap in understanding between you and them. it's the kind of isolation where you know you can't communicate what you feel, and you have to bottle up the topics that excite you so intensely because you know others will remain indifferent.

this is precisely why, in a tyranny where the abnormal is considered normal and the majority oppresses the minority, an intj's unmet need for the basic human desire of "being understood" drives them to despise society.