i think it all starts with the realization that the environment you're in or can access have an intellectual level that's lower than what you need or can tolerate.
it continues with you having to put in way too much effort to be understood and to express your ideas. eventually, you come to realize that you just can't change the stupidity surrounding you, which leads you to silence and to play a role for the sake of your social connections.
as a result, this role will start to wear you down over time, causing you to gradually withdraw and become isolated, but hey, at least you'll be free from all that baggage. a good deal? sometimes it's the best deal one can get, sometimes it's just not. we need socializing, and i'm not sure how long we can keep up like that.
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living alone can be really tough at times. you come home, cook your meal by yourself, and eat by yourself. even the dishes are just for one. the laundry is only for one person. you sit on a big couch all alone. you lie in a huge bed, under a double-sized blanket, but it's just you. man, it's hard!
do you know what it's like to walk into the kitchen alone? or to stare into the void while having breakfast at the table? you drink tea by yourself, wait for the night to come, take a shower, brush your teeth, and sleep alone. even your dreams are for one.
your books belong only to you. the pens on the desk are yours alone, and your notebooks are filled only with your notes. if someone knocks on your door, it's either the neighbor or the doorman. even your friends have become pairs, and you feel like there's no place for you.